Lion and Magic Boy

Remember I said I was sick yesterday? Yeah, well, I went for that walk in the forest and on the beach, took a zillion pictures (none of which I am posting now, unfortunately for you, because they are all AWESOME), and immediately felt much better. I think it was when I got the message that the sick feeling was due to all the changes that are going to occur for me and my resistance to that.

Oh.

What??

Changes?

Do tell…

So though I ostensibly came here to the beautiful Pacific Northwest to write, and would have been quite happy simply writing, it seems that instead I am doing more spiritual-type work than I anticipated. Specifically, I’ve been working with Matthew quite a bit and it would seem that things in that arena are a-changing, meaning this channeling work I have been doing for lo nine years now is changing. Changing focus, changing mechanically, and with all that come some changes within me as well.

For instance, it looks like I get to completely break down who I ever thought I was and take down the walls I built around who I really am.

THAT sounds like fun, eh?

So the whole thing has caused some, shall we say, feelings of being imbalanced, simply because what has for a long time been familiar is now (slowly) being replaced with something else. I have no complaints about this and am actually quite looking forward to it all, because, well, my life IS about creation after all. But I do find it a tad bit ironic: just when I come to a point where I actually like myself, it turns out that isn’t really me anyhow, or isn’t the totality of me or, well, something. I get a pretty good-sized glimpse of all this but there are still, understandably, more than a few holes that will fill in of their own accord eventually.

So are we cool?

On other fronts, I’ve got two new gigs lined up that I can’t quite yet tell you about, and one more gig I’m putting together as we speak that will be HUGE, and all in all?

Life is wonderful.